Thursday, June 4, 2009

Lullaby

Last night we had the absolute most spectacular lightning storm I have EVER witnessed!! It was stunning... AMAZING!!! It actually didn't look like lightning in the sky... it looked like one gigantic strobe light. It kept coming and coming for over an hour. The storm literally passed right over our roof top. J and I went from watching it on the front deck to watching it from the back deck. As I sat there on the deck, I was completely taken aback by God's works. I was reminded in a very real way of how big and mighty He is.

The boys were wiped out last night. They went to bed (on their own) early and missed out on most of the storm. At one point, Jason and I both felt a little guilty for letting them sleep through it. As a mom, I also felt a little empty. You see, when they were little, a storm like that would have made them sit straight up in their beds and yell for help. They would have been glued to my sides. I would have held them close and sang... and then prayed them back to sleep. Last night I didn't get to do any of that. Last night they slept soundly until almost the very end of the storm when a loud crash finally woke two of them up. They came out and marveled at what they were seeing, then they went back to sleep. They felt safe. They knew it was just a storm, and it would be over soon.

All of this got me thinking...

Isn't this where God wants me to be? He wants to comfort me and bring peace to my heart. He wants to sing me to sleep when I feel a storm brewing in my heart. Ultimately though, He wants me to feel safe. He wants me to just KNOW that it's a storm that will be over soon, so I should just rest through it. He longs to hold me in His arms, yet He feels pleasure when I'm able to have confidence in His abilities. He desires for me to find comfort through Him without even a second thought.

My boys are growing up. It's a bittersweet process. I long to sing them a lullaby while I have them safely snuggled up on my lap.... BUT I find such joy in seeing them become men of God. It brings me such satisfaction when they are in life's storms and they figure things out. They can rest. How awesome is it that I get to witness this in them?

I am riding out life's storms...

Feeling lessons learned from these three precious boys...

Seeing the mightiness in God's most powerful hands...

Hearing the lullabies of a Father who adores me.

2 comments:

Dad said...

Come on now, better than Kansas?

partyoffivetn said...

beautiful post...